For the greater part of my life, my relationship to and behavior with food reflected my belief that it would “make me fat” if I ate too much or if I restricted my intake, I would lose that weight and all would be right in my world. I discovered dieting in my early teens, beginning a nearly 30 year spiral into a life where days were spent counting calories, fat grams and carbs. Fearing what food would do to me, I bounced between extreme restricting, compulsive eating and consistent purging. I judged my self worth and attractiveness by the size of my thighs, never satisfied with the number on the scale.
By my 30’s, my disordered eating was the focus of my inner world and taking its toll on my health, self-esteem, personal growth, and not to mention the negative impact it was having on my then teenaged daughters. By my late 40’s the social drinking I had once enjoyed evolved into another way for me to avoid life on life’s terms. During the same time, the rug was literally pulled out from under me when my husband of 28 years lost his battle with malignant melanoma.
Here I was, a widow, a single Mom, a woman who was numb to how to deal with feelings or the ability to ask for what I needed. This pattern had already been robbing me of my health and vitality, what went next was part of my soul. I was in what I now refer to as a “black hole”, a sewer of sorts, that I had to climb out of if I was to live my life as a woman whom my children, and I, could be proud of. Determined to find the light, I embarked on a journey of self-discovery and healing. What followed was a series of life-changing experiences which taught me that facing my feelings won’t destroy me, this blessed life we are given is a lesson in itself, and that how and why I eat is as important as what I eat. I learned that I need not use food OR alcohol to numb me or get me through the days and nights.
The experience, strength and hope I’ve gained from this journey, my education in Functional Nutrition and Holistic health, trainings in Transformational Coaching and Eating Psychology have inspired me to create The Freedom Promise, a blueprint to guide you to explore your beliefs and behaviors as they relate to food and your body; and give you the tools and skills you can rely on to get you through the days of your life with resilience and vibrancy. I share with you the proven strategies I’ve embraced to successfully find my way back from a life ruled by a fearful and confused relationship with food, addictive behaviors and the consequences to my health that ensued as a result. You, too, can BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE.